My way of life for now

Here we live in the world of sin,
Where lust and dust had covered our sight.

How we speak in the world of quest,
That we might proceed or
Dead in it.

Death we face,
For one and only.
Those who are surrounded,
by the melodies of life,
Where either born or death be the
Core symphony of life.

We come and we go,
for destiny that we endure.
With excitement we reach this place,
and leave,
exactly how we arrive.
With excitement Too,

An old friend

I was really sad,
when a long lost friend of mine,
was lost in vain...
what should I do, and what could I do,

I search,
I pray,
I hope,
and I lost in fate.

Nothing happened at all,
I couldn't found him,
I knew I had lost my dearest friend.
A friend who I met in this never land.

Year flies,
Nothing come by,
But memories of his,
Shadowing my grimly heart.

Who could feel the pain of mine,
Encounter such plight of faint.
Darkness fall upon,
which conquer my day.

the word,
F-R-I-E-N-D
which ended with end,
which indicated that,
Friendship will end,
not now and then,
but one day.
and that's what I'm not wished for.

The day had crawl upon,
though the time we had was long,
enough for us to know and appreciate each others.
for now and forever.

I was down,
When I know you're not longer there.
with me,
showing me what is the time of life.

Million miles of road,
I shall look upon,
for you, my friend,
who lost and gone.

Time had gone,
and effort lost.
Nothing gain,
but ended fond.

Prayed hard,
Please do,
Hear my plea,
O, Goddess of the Angel.

Time had flee,
and nothing seems pleased
Heart of mine,
are shattered in piece.

God bless it is,
He's back in piece.
Looking at it,
That's nothing could beat it.

Oh my old friend,
You're here again,
Who leave so far,
and so long.
Yet, we met again.

and
Never would a word,
could express the
Joy and Excitement,

and so,
Here we're again.
Forever and Ever
Never End.

Mr. Roscani..

Thank you for showing me the path

What's life if
There's ain't family in your life.

We're nothing if
There's no one to teach us since young.

Without the love
That had been poured to us.
We're again, NOTHING.

Everything seems so different IF
No one backs me up when I'm sad,
No one cares for me if I'm in need of care,
No one grants me the morality that the human being lacked of,
No one shows me what is Family,
No one teaches me how to be what I want to be,
No one defends me when I needed it the most,
and many more.

I thank them for showing me everything,
which some of the others might not be able to see,
I thank them for giving me everything,
especially for the loves and the supports that they give,
without asking anything for return.

Showing me what is Filial Piety,
by achieving what uncle and aunties couldn't achieve.
The way how both of you treat your friends,
Which is what I did to my friends now.
And I have lots of close friends.
as what you had too.

Showing me that Siblings are one important thing in life,
That I live and love them as much as I love both of you,
Equally, Unity and Love.

Thank you for everything which makes my life a wonderful and meaningful one.

thoughts again..

Life's a journey where you learn all the skills and knowledge of the world. However, it's quite happening that all of us doing the same thing over and over again for the whole life, and sometimes without even bothered what we had did to others.

We meet all sorts of human being, from our family members, relatives, to our friends. Not only that, we're surrounded by animals and plants. There are some good and bad ones.

For the good one, we try to maintain it and hope that it will last forever. Where else for the bad ones, we try to perish and banish it, hope that it won't ever come to you again.

Sometimes, life is always joking with us. The good one always disappear fast enough before we could actually get a hand on it. While the bad one always roaming within our self as if it's integrated in our body.

Depend on how we see the world, nothing is absolutely good nor bad. It's our thought which determine it.

Human being again

Human are funny, why they like it but they denied it?
They love it but they make it another way round.
They did it but dare not admit it
Then why did they complete the thing at first?

unknown

Life is unknown, and you will never know what would happen to you.
Sometimes it's good and sometimes it's not.

So what can I say when I do get something well,
and what can I say when the whole thing get really up side down?

I learn how to overcome the wave of life,
Sometimes It's low and sometimes it's high.

never be down when sometimes the lucky babe isn't on our side,
as it will be with us another second after that.

Never hate someone you don't like but show him/her you care about him/her.
Hopefully they will change lol~

Life indeed... unknown

Tought of mine V

Human is nothing as one says...
and how should human be nothing?
when something that human did can be anything
ranged from nothing to something.
So why is human nothing?

If human's nothing, how can they live?
born babies and so on?
is that really nothing?

Lesson I

I shall act as an idiot, don't bother about what is happening.
Why do I want to be clever? and get myself a dump of shit on myself?

Why do i care so much? This is not suppose to be my job.
Helping others are a tough job, really hard.
Sometimes if you did help them, they said they deserve it.
Sometimes if you didn't help them, they said you selfish.

What do I get when I help?
I get nothing, but sometimes I get some funny name like Selfish.
What is my problem now? being a fish seller?

Life is funny, Life is tough, and full unexpected event.
Sometimes it's excited and sometimes it makes you die.
What should I be, an Angel or a demon?


Live like an Angel but not being appreciated like an Angel.
Should I be the fallen Angel?
Shall I destroy the humans? Or being an Angel helping others around...

Does All angel will be fallen angel sometimes?
God is always right, but angel isn't God, is he?
So Angel will be punished to dead too?

No more clever me.. Bye bye to clever me,
And say hi to idiot me..

Tought of mine IV

It's something very funny, where human always blame others without actually looking at oneself.
Some people are really bad with their own attitude and yet they blame others for being an idiot when they did something the same to others.

Why can the human be so funny?
Why is LOVE blind?
There are a lot of guy and lady around the world and why the hell, some of the human are not able to choose their partner in term of their attitude, cleanliness and so on...

While some others, dare not to confess their feeling and giving tons of excuses just because they scare of the fact that they will get rejected?

Why some of the people are so idiot that they eventually tried to make up non-sense story when they could did it but are lazy to do?

Why some idiots tend to be so lazy to do something that should be done and bonded to their responsible but make it like they are right. They didn't even show concern and act like they don't know anything. Wow!



Why do human need to cover themselves with all sorts of markup, wash and clean their face with whatever kind of beauty products but ending up fail to cleanse their attitude and heart?
Then what is the use of those products?
Are human actually forgotten what is the beauty that one human being should have?
It's the inner beauty, not the outer one.
So why bother buying thousand or hundred of ringgit worth of items to clean your ass face but fail to realize that your biggest mistake that should be cleanse is your inner beauty ?

You maybe pretty on your appearance, but if you have lousy inner beauty, sooner or later, you will rot as your outer beauty will fade as age coming by.
However you inner beauty doesn't fade at all.

Life it's, and human are still so ignorant that they look for the temporary beauty but not the eternal one...

well.. to be continue...

Tought of mine III

I'm the shadow within the sun...
hiding beneath the horizon,
where no one sees me,

I do what i like, i like what i do
and that's what the meaning of the lifely blue.

I'm not a saint where they will make a spare.
I'm not a saint where I will kill it fair.
I would like it fail, but I'm not insane,
I would like it fail, as it make me sick.

Even a single sight,
it will kill my mind,
it's a worse sign,
that will end my kind.

No more kindness for now,
Devil had arrive..

There's something for tomorrow,
Where it will be all right.

Self-Control is my God, alright!

Some pictures

something on my mind

the night had came upon. with th wrath from the darkness. he wonder, why and how the world can be balance if it's not.

a human who have both faces of demon or angel. has chosen to be devil towards the globe. many had died because of one devil.

lust, power, greed had overcome every single weak soul and penetrated human hearts as swift as the speed of light and granting human with worse humanity towards not only the man kind but even our mother earth had been slowly affected.

go away you fool! no one are going to spread any mischievous towards the world. it's already too much and how would you pardon yourself from this mayhem?

rain drop. indicated that god is crying. again and again until that He splash his wrath towards on who disobeyed Him and cherish one who accept the blessing of His.

tought of mine ii

if one day, i'm dead. what will the world become.

life's seems so dull. and i'm seems so worthless. who will remember me when i'm gone?

a human is so tiny. seems so funny but it a fact.

dying for hunger and no one cares. like the stray dogs loitering at the streets.

compared to the one who died from hunger in africa or any other countries. i felt that the stray dogs' life is better. and we as a human who haven't faced this fate shall be glad.

human should be happy with what they have now. but seems like they had being overcome by greed. they want more even if they have the sufficient parts of theirs.

well. human will be forever human unless they change their way of thinking and their atitude.

*How to Dance in the Rain**

*How to Dance in the Rain**

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's
arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry
as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.*

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over
an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his
watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would
evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the
doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his
wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another
doctor's appointment
this morning, as he was in such a hurry. ** *
The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat
breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health.

He told me that** **she had been there for a while and that she was a
victim
of Alzheimer's Disease.** *
* As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.

He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized
him in five years now.** *
* I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even
though she doesn't know who you are?'

He smiled as he patted my hand and said,** *
*'She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is.'** *
*I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arms, and
thought,

'That is the kind of love I want in my life.'

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. ** *
True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will
not be.** *
*With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one
that
comes along that has an important message. This is one of those.** *
*The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they
just make the best of everything they have
*I hope you share this with someone you care about. I just did.
'Life isn't about how to survive the storm,
but how to dance in the rain..'*

It's hard to be a good person

Well, what is good person to you and what is devil to you?
I tried to hard and be a good person...

Be patient and tolerate whatever I could..
and ending up someone else comment me as if I'm an idiot..

Well, it's hard to be a good person right..?
I tried to use love to reverse the hate..
But ending up fail, what should I do?

My way of life

My way of life,

Changing from something to nothing, and from nothing to something.
Why should I be myself as myself are not belong to me?

Funding more knowledge for my life, and being cripple for whole life.
What is cripple in this life? Where one who don't follow the real way of life.

Life is about changing and uncertain indeed.
It's like the cloud and the sky, Where it changed so rapid and sudden.

Why people still want to argue when we know that we have so little time in this life?
Do they know that, we could kick the basket anytime from now?

Well, What is the way of life? For being someone for someone.
As a son, what will be your way of life?
As a father, what will be your way of life?
As a friend, what will be your way of life?

Living in the earth, the earth live within us.
Shall we be the way, or the way be with us?

Lead the way, or being lead?
Life is uncertain, while something is certain.
Born is, Sick is, Dead is.. What else is certain?

Well, that's the real way of life...
So what's life?

Ponder.. and ponder, what will be my way of life..

Tomorrow, Yesterday, More, Less

The older we grow, the less Tomorrow we have,
and the more Yesterday we have...

Well, lots of things come into my mind.
Life, learning how to be patient, how to overcome things.
Read about Buddha's teaching, where Buddha's not a God.
He's on who into Psychology of human mind.

Well, Lots of this teaching come into my head.
Only go for those which will help you to settle off your suffering.
He told me, death is a norm and it will happened anytime.
and my dad told me not to cry nor be sad when he's dead.
Well..? I have my second thought on that again..

Well, Buddha said, those who have realize the importance of life, can consider as the awaken one, or Buddha.
and I said, everyone who I met is my Buddha as I learn something from them.
My Parents are the Big Buddha for me...
My Siblings are my Buddha,
My Teacher, Friends and who so ever who...
Give me good stuff, helping me out, or whatever that made my life easier.
and God bless for those who gave me suffering, for giving me the chance to see through the meaning of life, and whatever that could improve my personality.
Well, thanks...

Well,some told me that, he or she's bad, and yeah, they are bad and shit or whatever awful things...
They taught you to be a better person so that you won't follow their foot step.
Well, again, it's life..

a moment of life

others always mention about being teacher is good, the pay is getting better and more and more holidays are awaiting for the teacher.

do they understand that all while. being teacher is not really a good idea at all. the year 1 pupils already like shit to teach on nowadays. tired. slp

I want to live in the place,
where there are full of greens,
where the skies are blue,
and the weather are cold.

Thinking of it,
seems like everything's
not cool.

living like a fool,
and being destiny,
to be played like having flu.
it might be something big behind it.

Life's a fool.
being jinxed makes me cruel,
I live and fight to be good.
but that's not what I really could.

I'm a human, who blessed with heart,
a heart which might be with Satan,
nor the heart which goes with God.

I can be Evil and I can be good.
Just the fact who treated me good.

Gardasil Vaccine injury - cervical cancer vaccine?

Well, I'm surprise to find out this, tho it's late but hope this help others out and aware about this Vaccine as I thought it's helpful towards the ladies.. Read on..

What is Gardasil?

Gardasil is the first cervical cancer vaccine. It targets four strains of the human papillomavirus (HPV), which are linked to many, but not all, cervical cancers and genital warts. The vaccine is administered in three doses over a six-month period. Gardasil is manufactured by Merck & Co, and was approved in June 2006 for girls and women ages nine to 26.

Since its approval, over 26 million doses of the vaccine have been given worldwide, with 16 million in the United States.

Possible Side Effects of Receiving the Gardasil Vaccine

Seek immediate medical attention if you develop any of the following symptoms of an allergic reaction to Gardasil:

• Hives
• Difficulty breathing
• Swelling of the tongue, lips, face, or throat

Other serious side effects may include:

• Feeling faint or dizzy
• Pain, itching, or redness at the injection site
• Mild fever
• Nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, or upset stomach
• Runny or stuffy nose
• Sore throat
• Cough

Overview of Gardasil

Gardasil has been under scrutiny after news headlines featured reports of serious, sometimes fatal, side effects in patients who received the vaccination.

In January 2008, Pfizer updated the Chantix drug label to include a more prominent warning about its side effects of agitation and suicidality. Shortly thereafter in February 2008, the FDA confirmed a strong link between Chantix and suicidal behavior, noting the drug’s connection to nearly 40 suicide reports and over 400 instances of suicidal activity.

Reseach that led to the development of the vaccine began in the 1980s, and the active ingredients of the vaccine were generated in 1993. Clinical trials of Gardasil were conducted on 12,000 women ages 16 to 26. Gardasil was tested on only a few hundred 11- and 12-year-old girls.

The long-term impact of the vaccine is not known. Because testing of Gardasil lasted only a few years, it is unclear how long it remains effective. Furthermore, since most recipients of the vaccine will not reach an age at which they are more likely to develop cervical cancer for quite some time, the real-world effectiveness of Gardasil remains unproven.

Source: http://www.edgarsnyder.com/drugs/gardasil.html

Another report

Data from the Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System and Beyond
Please do not misunderstand me; I realize that cervical cancer is a hideous disease, but we must measure not just the doctors' words of the benefits outweighing the risks, but rather we need to understand what the benefits are and what the risks are as well as what percentage is at risk.

Gardasil, in my opinion, is one of the most dangerous vaccines to come out since the introduction of the Hep B vaccine, that after a formal hearing was re-formulated because it was in fact found to be dangerous. So please do not believe that just because a vaccine is produced and release
by a manufacturer, accepted by the FDA, and dished out to our kids by doctors with good intention, that they are all safe and that the risks are small. The Hep B vaccine is proof that
vaccines can and do kill and cripple children.

Here is the reporting so far on Gardasil. Based on VAERS, (Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System), as of March 28, 2008, there were 7,379 reported adverse incidents, 124 disabled, and 13 deaths. Here is the scary part, it is estimated that only 1% to 10% of medical professionals report these incents to VAERS for numerous reasons. Many feel Gardasil vaccine injury is psychosematic reactions, many say the reactions are normal and not to be worried about, and the majority deny that the incident had anything to do with the vaccines. For instance, many girls have died from blood clotting within hours of receiving this vaccine, but they are dismissed as coincidental. If every doctor reported every reaction as they are supposed to, then we could get real figures, and girls all dying shortly after a vaccine with blood clotting or heart failure, suddenly would not appear so coincidental. Many of the reported reactions include paralysis, Bells Palsy, Guillain-Barre Syndrome, and seizures.

Source: http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/691557/gardasil_vaccine_injuries.html

Do you know how Sultan Mizan Stadium Collapse

that's why..

mountain or hill

Some are mountain and some are hill,

how do I choose and what would it fill?
a flat and a bounce...
it's the same no matter how


I'm curious, for what it's
and it's what I'm curious for.

No one show and never will,
a curious cat...
for a boy like me.

Curious cat can get killed?
=x

Unknown

It's been awhile,
where the ocean are blue,
the forest are green,
and the moon are shinny sooth.

Voice of the unheard one.
Who will understand?

Complicated as stated and
nothing seems can be done!

Life is weak and really so tiny!
Torment soul of the creature,
will only survive,
If and only if, being
cared with Love ..

A Picture a day 2

Why Women Cry???

Why Women Cry???
Watch her eyes.....
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry..

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said

"When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

A Picture a day

Time and Me

Time passed really fast...
I mean.. swiftly




Looking back to my album and found out some pictures of mine...


More energetic! and look at myself now.. old rugged..

Aging... I know that I'm less committed to what world had offered to me...

I learn quite a lot of things, like how human can change so fast, regarding their thinking...


Ways of treating friends, you know... humans are always fake... That remind me something on FRIENDSHIP...



When can we have a group outing or gathering again?
How people cursing and setting someone away, and ending up being friends again...


Life is funny...



When someone leave from your life, and you will start to appreciate it..
Before that, people don't

Life can be so random, and from no where and you bum into someone, who you don't know at all.. They come and they leave you...


But one will stay with you forever, which will always stand by me..

Action Photography ~

a moment of life

K.H. Ang ( Neng) & Jasline's Engagement Section

Do Enjoy the pictures!

Never love someone over the net eventho the pic seems pretty ~

Before and After Photoshop

erm.. look for yourself .... dots...
From the net, you might be seeing angels, but the reality is always cruel,
you might ending up meeting a "DINO" ...

something

it's something, where i thought it's nothing.
but seems like it's everything
yet, it's not my thing..

what is it I'm really thinking..

I'm wondering,

1. I don't think I can find any prefect girl around the world

2. There are 3 types of girl in the world:
a) Who is pretty and heart so so- rich people can afford or whoever can take it.
b) Who is so so in outlook and rich in heart - most people go for it.
c) Who is not good in looking nor good in inner quality - but still, some idiots go for it...

The world is weird isn't it? You knew that it's bad like smoking/ drug, yet some idiots poke their heads in...

God Bless them..and hopefully they awake fast...

Peeing at Genting Highland

A picture tells it all ~

Berapit Hill's Sunset

Enjoy the set

Something that everyone should watch.

View this movie at cultureunplugged.com

Lord's Advice

Lord Buddha taught me a lot of things, where i don't eventually learned from somewhere else.

1. I learn how to be patient when I faced challenge on things that I can't hold on. Yea, I really got patient after that.

2. I learn how to be more open. I always think the bad way instead of the positive one. Slowly I understand the law of nature and observe the heart of mine and others.

3. Money is less important than any other things( friendship, family, love, just anything) plus, money is actually a symbolic.

During the time before there's any currency, human tend to use items to exchange for another items. That should be the real meaning behind it.
Do you think if that you're rich and you can live happily ever after? Think second time by looking at the paper. How many rich person got into shit trouble with robbery, kidnapping etc?
If you're rich, you need to worry about how to store you money, how to maintain it etc etc.

WOW! I rather to be shitty below average man where i can live in the style I wanted to. I might enjoy less, but I will do it another way to enjoy myself. The poor pupils way.

4.I learn to be satisfied with anything I had now. If you can't satisfied with what you have now, then you will never be happy with what you get later...

When you have the desire for something but can't get it, you will feel sad, suffer etc.
When you are satisfied with what you have, you felt happy and glad.

Why wanna be sad/ suffer when you can choose to be happy?

5. The world is round, so does our karma..

When you create happiness to others, you will feel happy too. ( try it to believe, might take a long time to get the effect.)
When you create anger with others, you know what shit stuff will happened.
When you give something to others, they will reply you with something ( but remember don't always think that others will reply you with something. give with your heart, not your desire.)

One more fact about this, NO ONE WILL TREAT YOU GOOD, IF YOU DON'T TREAT OTHERS GOOD FIRST. <<== prove to me if I'm wrong

That's what I realize from him so far.. will update myself and remain myself while telling and writing it out to others.

God bless you..

Band's pictures

Enjoy ~

another young model