Letter to myself

I'm here, yet I can't felt that I'm here.
With lots of human, but I'm not belong to them.
I miss him, for his kindness that had shown.
My dearest Grandpa, that had long gone.

I still remember, when I was five...
You have go without telling me where had u been. And mummy told that I was laughing when you're with God. I don't know, why and how. I'm still young and don't know you're going to leave me forever, leaving only a lil memories behind for me to survive for the rest of my life.

Do you know how's my life going on? I'm sure you can see from the skies. I always like to snap pictures of skies and oceans, just to hope that one day I could actually caught you on my photo. I know I'm dreaming, but at least I have a dream. I always told myself, what gone will never return and that really hurts a lot and I always hate to live in reality.

Do we fated to be separated soon after that we have know each other for less than 1 year, as I don't know anything when I was a baby? How fair is that to me? and you? I really don't know what will happen to me...

My father says, "A man shall not cry". But it's not possible, I'm a human and I have feelings. I cry when i sad and I laugh when I'm happy. I don't want to be robot! So, I cry when i felt like crying and I laugh when I felt like laughing. Everything seems so wrong to the world. You can do this, you can't do that... and how will we live in a happy moments?

After a storm, there will be a rainbow... that's what I learn in my life. I cried and I arise as a better man. Search for the path I'm looking for. The philosophy that I'm living for, the motto that I'm fighting for and for the family, I'm loving for, and for the world, I'm working for.

What comes around, goes around. When I understand this phrase, lot things came to my mind... Death, Money, Friends and everything...

Why do I need so much money, if I can't bring it when it's time to meet my creator?
Why do I fear of death, when I knew that it's Law of Nature?

The only thing will be leave over, will be the memories that one's had done. And that is why I'll miss my grandpa so much.

Well, that's life where you have to choose to face your journey with smile on your face or had you life carried out in miserable way and you will have your face twisted and sad forever?

Cheer Raymond! Don't be Foolish!

我

不知道大家會不會有這樣的感覺...　其實任何事都一樣　總是繞了一大圈之後又回到了最初的自我＠ˇ＠
所以人更應該懂得知足　而不是無止盡的追求深不見底的慾望　有時候最簡單　最原始的　最初的或許才是最好...
有些人或許常常在抱怨自己不夠快樂　不夠幸福　不夠富有　但其實你跌到谷底的時候不滿足　飛到雲端還是會不滿足...
當然我的意思並是說這一大圈是白繞了　而是應該抱著美好的心情去追尋自己的可能性　而不是總是怨天尤人
就算會回到原點　也還是走了一遭　任何喜怒哀樂都是你的回憶...
跌了跤也好　遇到挫折失敗也好　回頭看看自己的原點　那最簡單的生活　其實並沒有那麼糟　對吧？

My life teacher.

Once I heard someone told me that, Enjoy your life and treat yourself better.
and this is what MOST human being are doing.
Enjoying themselves too much and end up with something else.

Well this is something real from what I experience myself, and this is the quote I come up with,
"Treat others the best, then only others will treat you good."
Try follow this within you, and tell me if it's not true.

Life isn't fun and you won't grow up if you don't face difficulties.
Well, life will be fun even though you face some damn shit in your life.
Think that it's a lesson and a challenge that will improve you.
Let your mind control your heart and telling that it's fun, as if that you're playing games!
So, it's easy to kill off your problems and making you a level higher than the previous you!

Wait no more! Go and help others out and train your mind now~

PS: Going out to photo- shooting tomorrow at Gurun, Kedah. So no update for Tomorrow~

do you know who i'm?

you are xxx, xxx, xxx..

Who is me?
Why others know about me but i don't?
i don't need you to tell me who im.
i know who im, even tho i don't really understand.

and i don't even care who u're.
who are you for me to judge who you're?

oh... ok.. i don't want to know u too... bye bye.

Mouth

I'm hungry!
but others said I'm greedy, and some address me as fatty.

So do I care? What others had say?
I'm fat, or whatever I'm...
but who are you to judge me?
My parents? yea, shut up...

No one ask you to talk,
I'm sorry for your mouth... being abuse for "chicken backsiding" too much.
Wow.. God Bless you!

But I can't let you to stop abusing your mouth, please continue say others ~

Hate Being Myself

Being a fool and leading to cruel, Life is always about fool.
Living in hardness, when others are not.
Do I think life is fair? I don't think it's.

For me, I hate being who I'm,
But for those who had a worsen fate than me...
What would they think?
So I tell myself, Don't be greed and Don't be fool.
Appreciate for who are you.

So... I live in peacefully in my NeverLand

Heaven or Hell

Lost in mind, and share with sight...
life are lost in a matter of time.
Who can predict the Angel of Death,
Will come in peace or burned in hell.

Human are being that blessed with soul,
with the wisdom of all creatures' role.
Some with brainy and some they don't,
for those who don't,
shall let the world doom.

Yes we're in the world of hunger,
where human are eating another human.
Now we see the war in zone,
killers are human,
and the prey are too.

Time of peace shall never be here,
when the people of greed covering dear.
Those who have power, the mighty one,
and they are the one who bully the others.

It's the fun towards the one,
who have the power and sees no one.
Where else for the little one,
like the normal citizen like you and everyone.
Living in the world, but staying in a hell,
Where there's no one you can trust,
or maybe just your loved ones.

When there's no one to get you out,
when you know you're no longer in a shout.
covering with shits and deeply drown,
and God shall be the one, and will never let you down.

Hell or Heaven, you're the one to choose,
To see it negatively and you will be perish in Hell.
To see it positively and you will be cheered well.

Gamble Fiesta

Losing a game in simple gambling game seems create chaos and tension to some players.
Making it a whole new disaster to one's life.

The world is round and the God is fair.
When you win, thus you shall lose the other days.

When you win a game, doesn't mean that you win everything,
and when you lost a game, doesn't mean that you lost everything.

When you win, others will be down. Thus they might have think of something bad towards you, cursing you. It's simple, look at our life...
Human nowadays are racing for a better life...
Ok, so if you rich... Does it mean you have a lot of friends who are truthfully befriend with you?

One might be losing out money, but the one who's your true friends will never leave you and continuing to support you.
Same apply to the real world. When you're poor, they will stick around with you and have the unity together.

So which one would you prefer?

"Meaning of life, shall I be fear.
To the mountain of high, Anyone will ever heard.

Blessed with fellows, who's willing to fought,
You will never be hungry, nor alone in the darkness." -Raymondcno <<=== LOL