There she goes

She was one important lady in my life
who makes my day,
different from other child.
Where I have my own gang of candy chewer.

Our memories start in a wonderful manner.
life seems so simple...
both of us get together.
it's the destiny we ripe within some year.
and we met again,
in this fanciful here.

It's here we met,
with the family we came.
when i were young, i dont know anything,
but know this nickname of yours.
which started which a "G"
and ended with a "R"

You're the one who give me courage
and power
to live

so much to live on and so much to say
that so much to talk of
and never ending fate.

how much we had been together
and how long had we stayed
and how others treating you
and you could say...

I dont know what's happening in between
you and them...
but from what I see now
it's just not fair

the unfairness
and the ill-treatment
of theirs
to you.

it's just, not what we're doing.
when you're sick,
there are not there.
even they do,
it's just so the sack of...
acting out
that they care,
but heck,
they dont...

What had happened actually?
Can i know?
can i know why they are like that?
i really wished to know...

your face's like a buddha,
whenever i see you,
my heart's calm,
and even you're nothing me anything
I know you care
for who i'm
and who you're.

I love your smile,
it's the purest,
from deep of your heart.

but why they dont care?
why they dont even bother to see you?
when they're here,
why when i always wanted to see you,
you're not there anymore.
going to see your beloved husband,
on the air.

some of them,
were so eager to wake you up in the morning,
when you will never wake up
forever again?

why wouldn't they wake you up,
when you're still able to?

They buy cars, house, and all sorts of interesting items
they give you money, gold and everything!!!
and send it to you with flames...
and you receive it in dust and ashes.

Why wouldn't they did all that,
when you're able to enjoy it?
when you're stay in it?
but to let you have all of it,
somewhere in the middle of the sky?
WHY?!

Life's a joke,
you had this funny little fellow who
come to claim your body as theirs.
and you fall to them.

and started to reclaim your body.
after a bloody fight.
but ended being hurt.

You can only sustain your body
with milk...
through a tiny little plastic tube
from the air...
through your nose, to your body...
it's very sick for me...
to feel your pain...

my heart is sore.
and realize that life is so tiny and weak

how ironic that they,
still don't want to see you.
and this kind of attitude,
is so disgusting.

May this kind of fate cursed upon you..and you and you and you...
for being so mean to her.

and now,
she's going to somewhere
that she's belong,
to continue her life
with her beloved, who leave her
18 years ago
when i was 5.

I wish you could open your eye to look at me
I wish you could talk to me
but seems like it won't happened.
it's ok, at least i know that you're still with me.

Good bye "G"rand Mother"R"
I love you so...

Who are they?
for one who they might be.

For the soul which being torment,
by the other soul,
of power, and desire.

humans are humans,
we born in equal.
No on shall be God,
then the one who you're in - The inner you.

Why they have power,
and instill fear upon others.

Why they have wealth,
and again instill fear upon others.

Again, Humans we're...
shall work for what we deserve,
and when we get what we deserved.

Do not use them against what moral had stated.

Educator and Meditator(monk)
both are teachers.

sometimes Im wonder,
who will live better?

both must have noble character.
and educate to be better,
the mission is simple,
just to educate the world.

both treated with respect,
but seems it's gonna be a fact.
Educator seems lousier,
than almighty Meditator.

we serve as the son of God,
to fulfill the desire of knowledge to others.
yet the treatment is differ.

Educator got scolded and cursed by the one he/she taught.
Meditator got respected and blessed by the one he/she taught.

life it's,
and this is the way i choose..
it might be so wrong ,'
and seems impossible ...
at least, it's not wrong.
and this is my way of life,
and how I was taught...
and who im..
be gone.

again we as human,
we're powerless to control some situation.

For those who does,
it can't be more than 99% of total control.
Unless, you're God.
Does God have 100% control against all?
In doubt now...

for trust,
we had in each other,
in the human world of civilization.

The strong structure of being together,
could be easily ripped off by single tiny object.
A gigantic building,
could easily fall apart,
ripped by a single brick that support the building.
and all the hard work,
gone by gone.

no.. no more..
for the broken object,
would never be perfect,
after a little crack or ripped off.
it might be repaired, but it will have scar there.
not for once, but for the rest of the building.

word,
is an instrument that could makes communication between humans.
without knowing that,
words,
can be as sweet as a candy,
nor
as lethal as a poison.

what a wonderful world...
with the reality that,
it's connected to hell.
which related to the Chinese Yin Yang.

Sometimes,
the more dangerous something is,
supposely it will be harmful to us.
but,
sometimes it doesnt.
Funny but true.

Stress could be dangerous if too much of it.
but it does the magic to do something,
and it became something good.

so dangerous doesnt mean it's bad ...

and

nothing is good...
money is good if you have it.
but you will never be good,
when you have too much of it.
as things might happened to you,
as you have too much of it.

life it's...
this is my way of life.
well, it's time for me to change...
yet, it's still my life...
with both hell and heaven,
I endure in this way.

no one I could,
change or being sway.
that's the truth of life.