Karmatic Life

It's been awhile, I had make myself a complicated chap who make sure everyone are happy and enjoy their life without even taking care of my own self.

Millions of times, some did advice me not to be that. Yet, I failed them and treating others the best I really could and Yes I did it for the sack of letting everyone in the world enjoy the excitement of life that the globe shall offer.

It might be a totally different outcome when I do it. God's playing with me, or I'm fooling myself with my stupid theory regarding "who you live for?"

Every times I helped someone, and what I get back from them are totally shit. Sometimes I ponder about this question myself, and really wanted to know the fact of God, stated that, do good and get good. Is it true?

This world is started to smoked with lust, sin, and devilish characteristic unlike centuries ago.
The better development of one country, the worsen moral value will be. Robbing, killing, raping etc. Making me sick of this world.

Why just can't the world be a better place by offering helps to others and stop being selfish and acting out those qualities that ain't suppose to show off. When will these Homo Sepia understand the important of self value? and ending up being caught in the realm of hell.

Now, The hell realm isn't located in the Underground Hell anymore.
It's located where you are living right now, EARTH... The Living Hell.

Human are way more terrible than the ghost!
They kill,
They steal,
and they do everything,
With their own bloody will.

Karma is one of the reason for everything that happened in our life.
It's simple, Do good deed and God will rewards you handsomely.
It's life, no one will treat you good unless you treat someone good first...

~Om Mani Pad Me Hom~

Something special

Every minute in my life i had a great moment, regarding the person around me nor the things happen within my life.

it's such a day, where my mom suffered the most to led me, arriving to this fantastic world of wonderer.

one might wonder what im talking about, ponder about the sentence i written above

The gift i received, was kinda sweet for a kiddo, soft toy. while another hand, i had a Polo belt from the same person. however, the person's identity will remain in secret.

Why soft toy? everyone have a child living in their heart, so do i. having such soft toy make me so 'childish' again, i would just jumping and hopping around like monkey.

yea, im still a child in my heart, and everyone else should.

I look upon the eye of the toy, i get the message for being a wonderful person which could hold the heart to accept anyone without concerning their races or other status.

Dont forget, im Malaysian, and i suppose to be that in my heart. i always think, how can i bring the LOVE to my surrounding. by offering care? somehow i do not think that MOST of the homosepian in the world will appreciate it.

some of them think that the care and love from their parents, are something that THEY DESERVE. Im really sad and bother about the statement which come across mind and mouth.
How far can this fact to be true as more and more elderly were being sent to old folk home.

Sweet memories together, is what i had implant it into the self-made wallpaper. Memories are the only thing that we can bring forward after we go off from this fancy world.

Every moment in our life, will determine how great or how well a person would be, either in the present life, or after life. Heart is what we wanted in relationship. no doubt that, without any commitment between on and another, there will not be any LOVE going around.

have you ever say ' I LOVE YOU' to your loved one? if not, Please do it right now.
Take out your phone and ring up them, you mom, dad, siblings or whoever you care.
and tell them how much you care about them.

P.S : Do use the wallpaper if you want, and give me some rating for that =) Cheers!

Will'ed Memory

我爱的人走了…爱我的人什么时候会出现…

My Loved one has left me, and when will the one who Love me appears?
　　
　　今天，你走了。

Today, You lefted me...
　　我没有等到你上车，自己就独自离开了。

I didnt waited for you to go into the bus, and I walked away, Alone.
　　我想我承受不了那种离别之苦，可那又算什么离别…

I think, I cant bare the soreness of separation, but seems like the separation is nothing to me

我又不是你的谁，

I'm not related to You.
　　我对你没有恨，那当然也没有了爱。

I have no hatred to You, nor Love You.
　　我们的相遇也许就是一个错误，

Maybe the encounter of us, is just purely a Mistake
　　为什么在我想和你在随风淡去的时候，

Why when the time I would like to be with you , you set off like the wind blow

给了我希望，却又一次把我揣进深渊。

You have given me Hope, and again you made me tumble into the deep cliff.
　　我的心已经麻木。不知如何接受与分别。　　

My heart are Numb. And dont know how to accept or make a selection
　　我真的很难受，为什么呢？

I felt gloomy, but why?
　　受伤的总是我…

I'm the one who always being hurt

灯熄了，梦却醒了，

Lamp's switched off, and my dream awaken

　　梦醒了，心却碎了，

My dream's awaken, and my heart broken
　　心碎了，人却笑了，

Broken heart, and I started to smile

　　人笑了，爱却没了…

When I started to smile, Love has gone so far.

　　剩下无尽的惆怅和伤感，

What lefted behind, were Endless of sadness and sorrowness
　　笑和哭对我已经没有了界限，

To me,There's no boundry between Smiling and Crying
　　没有了爱人的世界是这样的暗淡无光…

The world seems so dull when there's no Loved one.

哦！不！

OH! NO!!
　　你不是我的爱人，你是别人的爱人，

You're not my Dear, You're other's Darling,
　　而我只是在你失意时划过的一颗流星。

And I'm just a sole Shooting Star which soar over when you're down.
　　心痛，痛痛痛，寒寒寒…

Heart ached.. it's hurting...

感觉你一点一点的离我而去，

I can sense that you slowly leave me,
　　一点一点的和我拉远了距离，

bit by bit, our knot has getting further
　　直至消失不见…

It has dissapeared now.

　　我爱的人走了，

My Loved one has lefted me,
　　爱我的人什么时候会出现？

And when will the one who love me appear?

　　一天，

one day,

　　一个月，

one month,
　　一年，

one year
　　抑或一辈子…

or maybe forever

Toughts Of Mine - Human Friendship

Blessed with friends,
happy we should be.
but,
Are they the one for you?

My oh my...
Life seems so free!
coated with money and lusty.
oh.. Life isnt free!

Masked pupils around you.
Set you "FREE"!
slaying and slashing,
stabbing and poking,

Ouch, my back is pain!
Stop that you idiot!

"shut up, I still like to take my knife around!"
Oh God! that's life.

Once a wise man quote :
"Do good deeds, and you will get reply with excellent ones"
and I say :
"Do good deeds, and you will get reply with excellent ones IF other have their brain screwed"

Oh ya...
I knew that bloody theory long time ago..
Buzz off !

Do you like snakes?
" Oh yea! I Love those with twin head! They are cute"
Yeah.. GET AWAY FROM ME !

Do you like to act stupid?
"Oh yeah! I act stupid everytime someone asked me to do something"
Oh.. did you do that when someone asked you to eat?

" I want pay less and I want THE BEST ROOM in town"
oh... go find it yourself then farktard..

Friendship, sometimes is beatiful. Somehow, it's bloody fool!
Want me act like an evil mastermind? So be it Darlings =)

The Missing Pieces

One might say that life is not perfect and always complane about how others' living.

"Why did he born so handsome while I'm not?"
"Why are their family so rich while we're not? "

Any many many more about the unfairness of the world.
Somehow there are many things that you should look into. Do not just see a matter from a side.

Hereby I would like to share something with you :
The Missing Piece

Where Is The Love?

Is the human nature nowadays are cruel and heartless?

What the hell is going on?



I'm totally disappointed with my parternal auntie, they are just too much.

since that this 1st of June, my whole family are going to Medan to attend my brother's wedding, and no one will able to take care of my grandmother.

Therefore, my daddy asked help from my auntie and those idiots playing tai-chi, and give all kinda lame excuse for not able to take care of my grandma.

I'm TOTALLY PISSED OFF, how could this happen? She is your mother and no one willing to take care of her? Are you joking with me? Do you know how long has she suffer just that raise you bastards?

And at last, out of no choice, we have to send my grandma to old folk's home for a few days. And those useless auntie still suggest of which old folk's home to go. WHAT IS THIS?!

Let your mother stay for a few days will die?

Thanks to those morons!




Some of my auntie DID NOT even want to visit her mother even though she came to my house (grandma staying with me) and when grandma had admitted to the hospital because of falling down, and she started to cry and telling all sort of tales said that she didn't take good care enough of her. This is really making me sick.

SHE IS YOUR MOTHER! YOU HAVE THE DAMN RESPONSIBLE TO HER!

So pupils, Please remember your responsible as a child and you wouldn't want you child to dump you next time don't you?

God is watching them for doing this and will certainly repay them for what they did.

"GOD BLAST YOU IDIOTS!"

What's Life To Me.

Life is like a lonely candle flame, The flash is lil when your life started and the lifespam of the candle flame will disappeared slowly without notice.

Life's unknown, just like the candle flame. The blaze might just went off anytime, anyday. and some might lighten up others through out their life till the end.

Somehow, Life still go on...



Life is similar to the lonesome moon above the clear sky. The cloudless sky without any stars, wouldn't it be sorrow?

Imagine the sky with thousand stars within the moonlight shadow. Shimmering heaven through the eye of mine.

Life's wonderful if we are being accompany by buddies.



Human nature, being Angel or Devil. Live in heaven or hell.

No doubt that this world are full of disaster, but there's still Angels within.

Robbery, raping case and other sinful accidents always happen. And that's fate.



You can always choose to be an Angel. Help others around and bring joy to the world.

God is always there to observe us.

Do good and God will bless you with happiness. If vice versa, Lord of Destruction will knock your front door to pay you a visit.

What's Love to Me.

What is LOVE?

Most comment answer will be.. "aiyo gf,bf lo, why you so stupid one!"

Lil' Jimbo : Yea la BOSS, WHY you so stupid one? See my girl? * Evil* HAHAHA

Me : That's tissue la ..zzz *smack*



Felt that being loved by your partner, isn't that wonderful?

Hugging each other and feel the Love from the other. Sweet isn't it.

I catagorize Love into Three which is:
~Love for your family
~Love for your partner
~Love for your friends



Failing in any of these three items will result in shattered heart.

Love can be sweet, yet it's so poisonous that it will destroy your life.



Family Love is considered one of the largest propotion of Love ( For Me )

I was born and being bought up in my Lovely family, therefore my Love towards them are way more greater than any of the other two elements that has been stated above.

The second one, I don't think I will need to mention about the Romantic Love. It's just too prevelent to you guys! =D



Now, this is the main point that I would like to share with you all.

Love of Friendship. There are two views, which is from the eastern adolecense/adult and western side.



For most asian citizen, it's not common to greet someone like " Hey dear." If you do, some of them will misinterprete your meaning and tought that you're flirting.

Do not mention about saying "I Love You" to them. They might just blast you off with vulger words. Or they might say you're nuts.



Somehow it's totally difference from the western prospective. It's a norm for them to say "I Love You" to each others, and hug each others. It's a sign of Love. Love to your friend, Not Lust.



It's sad indeed to let go this wonderful practic, that show others what you feel and think. Others won't know how much you appreciate them without telling them.

Therefore, Please go to your friends that you grateful of. Give them a hug and tell them " I Love You". It's no a sin nor crime.

For you guys out there! *HUG* and I LOVE YOU, YOU and YOU!~~

There She Goes..

On the 17th of May,

My buddies and I were having a farewell party with one of my Sister - Kak Yon~



She is going to transfer to somewhere she belongs. ARG!! who's hand is that !?



My members are having hard time preparing food while I'm having fun snapping photo and fool around with Lil' Jimbo~

Seems like quite a few of my pal got excited with the present of Lil' Jimbo.



Yummy! Splendid Chicken Satay !

Jimbo! Step down please !



Walnut Topped Moist Chocolate Cake, Amazing taste with smooth texture. Even Jimbo Want to Bite it!



Delighting Cock-tail~ Ho Ho.. but why do they call it cock-tail while there is no cock nor tail in the drinks? hm..

Lil' Jimbo : Boss! I want to drink also !



We had our group photo-taking section, with the special guest. ( erm, not that bowl of watermelon)



As we finish the group photo-taking, These charming ladies felt that they wanted to take a picture too...

As the busy-body me~ I ran there and ops.. nearly kiss the ground.



Erm.. about this guy over here. He was the one who appear in the recent blog (sleeping guy) Hopefully he won't kill me after he see this =D


And lastly, I would like to dedicate this to my Sister.

You are the one who shine my path.

To the way being a superb.

Though the time we spend together,

Aren’t going to extend,

Yet I’m pleased to have a pal like you.

Isn’t it great if we can build the world together?

Yes, definitely.

But why we are being apart now?

God’s will…

To the world you may be one person,

but to one person you may be the world.

Sounds grand right?

But this is what I’m going to portray you.

I felt down for sometimes,

When I heard that you’re going to depart.

I’m losing my big sister…

But slowly,

I understand that,

Whatever happen, happens for a reason.

I don't cry because it is over,

But I smile because it happened.

Being happy is the priority of living,

If you want to be sad,

Be sad for something that’s worth it.

And I don’t think it’s something sad to let you go.

You have your part of world to proceed.

I love you, not because of who you are,

But because of whom I am when I am with you.

Because of you, I have becoming a better person.

Because of you, I learn to lead the world.

And because of you,

I will make the world a better place.

Thank You and Love Ya!

Angel And Devil Within Our Soul

I believe that there's an Angel and Devil within our soul. Just that how are we going to manage the internal believes.

Why do some of these Human being are willing to kill, hurt others, just to get the money? Do they understand how important and precious life is? Even the Islam do mention about, no one have the authority to take away ones life other than the God. Yet, why is this thing still happening?


When human was born, the mind and soul are pure. Somehow when one grown up, the inner heart got influence by several bad aspects such as lust, greed, ego and more. Slowly, one can do something cruel in order to achieve the goal. What I mean is with nasty ways.

Through early education. We can somehow reduce the possibilities for these matters to happen. Everyone in the society should be a part of it. Do not just depend on one party. Most of the time, parents and teachers are the one who get all the bad names when things happened.

Television had the most influence to our future generation. 18-sx? 18-pl? I don't think it's going to be useful. On the other hand, it's good that gorvenment has make the move to ban the cigar' ad, just to ensure the youth do not mimic it.




I strongly believe that there are still some Angel live within our globe. Most of the Angels in our world has slowly turn into Fallen Angel because of the sack of the world. Children are being poluted with unhealty environments.

There was a case in America where there are 4 young children age within 10-12 are having sex in front of the whole class while the teacher was away for 15minutes. Frankly speaking, this is something very sick. Really really too much. Thank God, this incident didn't happen in our nation. Yet there are some other incidents that had stun our nation's community.

Religion should come into act, and purify the human mind.

Something That You Will Like To Bare In Mind

Sometimes, we alway think that we're alone. With no pal around us, no companions, no buddies. Yea, that's definately something worth sad of.
However, eventhough you might have whole world of friends, but does that mean you are not lonely? or maybe stuffy?
Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!
So, let me ask you. How many people actually have 8 true friends?
Do not spoil the relationship between you and your friends because of something minor. It's just don't worth for it.
And not to forget, do not create an enemy, even you have numbers of friend around you. They might not able to stop your enemy from hurting you.


Take some moment to be alone. Think back what you had done and what you will do.


Look at yourself, who are you, why are you here? Get a mirror, let it reflect yourself.
When you did something wrong or bad. Reflect yourself. Why did I do so and ETC.


Know your time. What is the time to enjoy and when's the time to work.
God will not spare you even one minute more than others. Be wise and true to yourself to manage the time properly to gain the most experience in your life.
Time is precious, why regret after missing the time?
If you know that you're going to regret for that. Then why do so? right?


Take time to rest. Do not let your body suffer since you're young. Otherwise you will face the consequences of it. Though sleeping is healthy, but do not sleep as much as you like. You still have things to get done just before sleeping.

P/s : For those Girl/Lady/ Women out there, think before you still awake early in the morning. Mr Aging will come to you. Please beware.

lonely night with only emptiness music accompany me.
it's hard to follow, oh no...
how can i survive?
this lonesome hours?

dissapointment and more are coming through my heart.
oh god,
what have i done?
what sin have i did?
what matter do i oppose?
what? why? how?!

why cant i understand what you want to tell me.
why cant you let me have a good night sleep?
WHY?!

karma, karma, karma...

Life is a fool

Life is a fool,
and it isnt cool.

full of dangerous mine ahead of you.
crash you will if you did thrill.
be a fool and that will kill.

so fast yet so slow.
my life seems so cold,
out of curiousity
there i go.

to the city of disaster,
and be the slave of money.
what could it be?

im tired of these,
but yet i still experience it.
life is a fool,
when dream doesnt came true.

life is a fool,
doesnt like seems real?
suicide has been the path,
these fools tend to be.

live life to the fullest,
yet i think ,
life is a fool,
nothing is flawless.

that's true,
life is a fool,
where the nature feel.
mother nature ill.

life is a fool.
backstabbing is cool,
to some of these fools.
hatred came true.

dashing out the window,
from the foolness,
live out your life
and be not a fool.

night time,
such a beautiful moment to share something together.
so much to do, yet so little time to spend.

"doesn't 24hours fair and enough for everyone?"
oh yea?! i wish there are 48 hours in a day.
you wanna know why?
because humans are greedy.

why human are greedy?
only god know.
** you can get his phone number from me if you want =p

rainny day have becoming a must to me
sleepless night has turn away from me.
me me me me .. it's all me ..
not you !

dont steal me dream please
it's my life ! my memory!
i need my beauty Zzz..

so warm yet so cold during the rainny night.
doesnt it indicate anything?
the world now is,
warm in surface, and cold inside?
just like the human?
is't it?

human, when you guys want to wake up?
our mother need our help...
her name is mother nature.
she suffer from all sort of disorder
pimples all around his face,
sun burn on her skin,
gastric as alot of asidic food.
and, always sent to hopital because,
always drink the water that being "process" by us.

mother's day soon arrive,
why dont we take the chance to thank our
"mother" nature
and
appreciate it.

please do not spoil our environment again,
otherwise,
chaos will spread all over the land.

unknown

who should it be or who is it?
nothing left inside, while letting you go.
gonna let you go...

that's you, that's nothing i can do.
i'll remember when, set forever.
here im again,
nothing set aside and never let you go.
you will never let me go.

letting it alone downtown,
making a way, making a way.
now i wonder, if i can fall into the sky.
now you know i walk a thousand miles,
to you.

i wish i will live in your precious memory.
don't ask me why.
i know i will be there tonight.
don't wanna let you know,
so that you won't remember it.

all the things she said,
running through my head.
which is not enough.
there's a magical feeling,
you can try to resist,
but you know,
can't fight the moonlight,
indeed.

it's been awhile,
coming to question the matter,
i will stress myself again.
all the thing i tought i miss,
all these memories are so close to me.

and all the mistake, and i finally go away,
and now we're here, yet so far away.
i can't forget and i'm not afriad.
i think im doing ok.

i never shown before,
i must be sleepy.

soon the monsoon rain fall,
through the serene beaches,
strong gusty wind,
blow all it down,
again and again.

when you say good bye..
petrify and step aside.
i do what i like and i like what i do.

i know i must be lonely,
but no one know me.
drop that and drop that and not ready.

dash dash mad mad..
crack crack fat fat..

tell me that is over..
and i will be the first to go.
and dont want be the last to go ..

favorite hiding place

Favorite hiding place of mine will be my room!
warm, gloomy, and i can just stuck in it for months without coming out.
freak is the right word to me.

"he might be a freak,
but do not judge a book by it's cover.
Be aware!
you will be suprise that someone still will love you,
because of that."

the world is fun and fair.
sounds like fun fair.
strive hard and pray hard,
the miracle will appear and
dream come true.

empty souls, roaming through the goal.
puzzle around the floor.
thinking of what to do, in his tiny space.
cosmos of thrill, frank and fill.

routine life, doesn't it sounds like no life?
perfect lifestyle but yet, seems fake.
no one is flawless, nor the way of life is.
be true to yourself and make it well.

Bored-ness

Boring~
Yea...yawnnn..
what can I do. i thinking of going back to my little hut.
life has been so freak, with all these workloads that have been killing me..

i still wonder, when is the time I will get my freedom. Flying across the wide blue ocean, and feel the wonderful ocean breath.
Man.. life sure is hard. life's sux. what else?

"ding, ding .." 12am again.
i still stay awake and did nothing but moodlessly looking at the screen of my laptop.
writting nothing, doing nothing, and still nothing can be done.

making one a truth, nor one making the truth.
feel the ocean breeze, or be a freak.
time has freeze, mind are twist.
twist and freeze, till the mind has frozen.

life might be wonderful and amazingly cool,
slowly we jump to the deepest cruel.
money, cash aren't that something true?

feeling

what's your feeling today?
sad? happy ? huh? i dont hear you!

there she goes, with all the hope of love.
love? ha, dont joke with me.
can it be eaten ? or cook with mee?

oh gosh, i dont know what is that!
what do i feel? ah!!!!!!!!
exploding mood with junky thrill.
moody swinging ..

dashing in and out.
making sure all is in the condition.
yea.. i know. it's hard.
but .. you should know

she's just ..
god is a girl? a goddess or a saint.
i dont know.
feeling is just so weird !
odd.. mad, freako and fantasy.

yea she go off my life, and so do i.
lust, made one fall and one gain.
ha. dead meat. piece of crap!

living in this sanity world of love and peace?
bullshit. no peace at all.
if she were here, does it make a different?
only god know.

feeling kills and dream thrill.
love is love and feeling is feeling.
dont mix it or face the truth.

life.

someone just kicked the bucket this morning,
yes.
god need him now. no matter how.

life is short, with might of god.
god of might with sight of light.
sugar of lance, chili of the hell.
smoking, drinking and all the dreaming.
equal to raging to the god.

there he goes..
some will say, what's the sin?
he is good while he's bad,
vise versa is what i say.

before life, after life.
listen to your heart, what you want and what you need.
be the one, who need to cry.
cry of what, worth to and jingle those which don't.

live life out. stay cool and dont get fooled.

life's a norm

what can be done if im a normal human?
life's a norm, where creature are free from the frame of cracking.

home, a wonderful place where the angels are there for you.
who are we when we're at our dearest hut?
should i say, the warmest place on the planet or the jungle of hope?

one might be fool nor be cool.
monster with human's mask, or human with devil's face?
being fooled or fool others.
doesnt it make sense to you?

gosh, being a gecko or being a piggo?
both are in the same place but different stands.
being treated in the other way, while one are being treated cruel.

oh mighty god, who are you?
hear my plea and dream came true.
birthday boy when wish might granted.
time passed, mind twisted, dream fated, cold hearted.

yellow, a colour of fun and sunny day.
full of lust or make of gas?
sound of furious, of stabbing.
back are being slashed with words and empty promises.
yes, i have the bloody wound.

red, a colour of anger, of blood, of hell!
good morning i say.
smile? baby, adult or elderly one?
innocent smile might get you into deep shit.
what would it be?

rage of anger, lust movement, chest of gold and blessing of god.
which and what, how and why.
life still go on, with all these elements.
life's a norm, bare with it with be the true.