生活篇 -父母

好久好久, 欢笑声,

那种感觉,好久没出现了.

长大了, 大家的大家,

都渐渐的,为自己的将来努力了.

寂寞的当儿,

我感觉到, 你们的存在.

对我而言, 活在当下,

如果没有你们为我的生活里,

刻下了一页页的回忆,

也许,我会更寂寞.

儿时,渴望的,重视的

应该是钱财和自由.

当儿,渴望的,重视的

反而是情. 不管它是什么情.

就是会很想他.

在外头读书,工作了.

总是看到别人开心的回家,

见到自己最爱的父母,

吃着妈妈煮的饭菜,

老爸打包的饭菜,

我,无奈...

矛盾因而溢出,

"吾乃不孝子?"

在心中,总是挣扎着.

内心想要的,但往往在现实生活中,

我做不到. 我给不到我父母最好的.

我还是我,

我不要好像,

那些不孝的子女,

等到双亲不在人间时,

才猫哭老鼠般的,

假情假意的,

我还是我.

我不要好像那些人,

等到最爱的人离开时,

才尽孝心,

我不要好像那些人,

等到去世了,

才烧些所谓的'金银珠宝'.

到头来,他们收到吗?

倒不如,我尽我的能力,

把我在我能力范围内的

都让给你们享用.

我这不孝子,

还未能让你们安心阿,

那么大了,还是要你们操心,

不孝啊.

你们忙了一辈子,

到了那么久,

还要担心我这个不孝子,

你们要我会来陪你们,

我没做到,

我却去了隔离你们很远很远的地方,

工作了.

为了自己的将来,

我很自私, 没顾虑到你们,

不孝啊,

如何阿? 左右为难阿.

名,乃先祖赐予吾也.

不孝啊,

我很自私, 没顾虑到你们,

想把它换了,也把它换了,

为了自己的将来,

不孝啊,

如何阿? 左右为难阿.

最后,我选择不要将来,

也要保住先祖赐予吾之名.

最后,我还是我.

我只希望,你们能长命百岁.

如果有这种机会,能让我把我的岁月,

转让给你们,就给我这份情意,

保留给你们...

想看到的,

莫非就是你们脸上的笑容,

让你能看到你们的后代,

一直在你们的眼里,

长大...成人...

你们俩的恩情,

如此的伟大,

我, 该如何报答

你们对我的一切的一切.

只能说, 我最爱的就是你们.

爸爸, 妈妈.

Something about Hokkien History and Learn Hokkien

This is interesting if you're a Hokkien, do you know...

Ancient Imperial Language of China - 2,000 Years Ago.

If you're a HOKKIEN Take Note !!

Ancient Imperial Language of China – 2,000 Years Ago

How Did it Sound Like? (Mind you, it's no way similar to Mandarin)
Has this Ancient Language Survived?
Who Speaks it Today?

You'll be Surprised. You have heard it. You, your parents, or grandparents may still be speaking this ancient, archaic language!

Yes, it's HOKKIEN (Fujian/Minnan Hua)

Hokkien is:

1. The surviving language of the Tang Dynasty (618-907AD), China 's Golden Age of Culture.

Note: The Hokkien we hear today may have "evolved" from its original form 2,000 years ago, but it still retains the main elements of the Tang Dynasty Language.

2. Hokkiens are the surviving descendants of the Tang Dynasty -- When the Tang Dynasty collapsed, the people of the Tang Dynasty fled South and sought refuge in the Hokkien ( Fujian ) province. Hence, Hokkien called themselves Tng-lang (Tang Ren or People of the Tang Dynasty) instead of Hua Lang (Hua Ren).

3. Hokkien has 8 tones instead of Mandarin's 4. Linguists claim that ancient languages tend to have more complex tones.

4. Hokkien retains the ancient Chinese pronunciation of "K-sounding" endings (for in stance, Hak Seng (student), Tua Ok (university), Thak Chek (read a book/study) -- the "k" sounding ending is not found in Mandarin.

5. The collection of the famous "Three Hundred Tang Dynasty Poems" sound better when recited in Hokkien/Teochew if compared to Mandarin.

6. Consider this for a moment: Today, the Hokkien Nam Yim Ochestral performance still has its roots in ancient Tang dynasty music. Here's the proof: The formation of today Nam Yim ensemble is typically seen in ancient Tang dynasty paintings of musicians.

More Astonishingly:
Although not genetically-related, Hokkiens, Koreans and Japanese share many similar words (which are different from Mandarin).

That's because Hokkien was the official language of the powerful Tang Dynasty whose influence and language spread to Japan and Korea (just like Latin – where many words were borrowed by the English, French, Italian, etc). Here are just a few words in Hokkien, Japanese & Korean for your comparison:

Hokkien	Korean	Japanese
Sin Boon (news)	Sin Mun	Shinbun - newspaper
Cheng Hu (government)	Chong Bu
Pang (room)	Pang
Chhia (car/vehicle)	Ch'a
Mui/M'ng (door)	Mun
P'hio (ticket)	P'yo
Eng Wan (eternal)	Yong Won
Chaek (book)	Ch'ae
Ki (flag)	Ki	Ki
Kang river)	Gang/kang
Poh Hiam (insurance)	Poh Ham
Sio Sim (caution)	Cho sim
Mo Kui (demon)	Ma gui
Cham (attend/join/mix)	Ch'am sok
Kantan (simple)	Gan Dan
Sin Sei Kai (new world)	Shin Sae Gae
Kok Ka (nation)	Kuk Kka
Hya (elder brother)	Hyaeng
Choon Pi (prepare)	Jun Bi
Si Kan (time)	Si Kan
Kam tong (emotion, feeling)	Kam Jong	Kanjoo
Kamsia (gratitude, thanks)	Kam Sa	Kansha
Keat Hoon (marriage)	Kyol Hon	Kekkon
Oon Tong (exercise)	Un Dong	Undoo
Tua Ok (university)	Tae Hak	Daigaku
Aun Chuan (safety)	An Jon	An Zen
Mua Chiok(satisfaction)	Man Jok	Manzoku
Ai Lang (lover)	Ae In	Aijin
Seng Kong (success)	Song Kong	Seikoo
Chhiu Sat (suicide)	Cha sal	Jisatsu
Pu Do (grapes)	P'o d'o	Budoo
Chin Por (progress)	Chin bo	Shinpo

To all 49 Million Hokkien Speakers:

Be Proud of Your Ancient Hokkien Heritage & Language! Speak it Loud and Clear. Teach Your Future Generation this Imperial Language, Less it Fades Away. Be Proud Children of the Tang Emperors.

To all Mandarin-speaking friends out there -- do not look down on your other Chinese friends who do not speak Mandarin – whom you guys fondly refer to as "Bananas". In fact, they are speaking a language which is much more ancient & linguistically complicated than Mandarin.

Keep in mind that Mandarin is just:

1. A Northern Chinese dialect (heavily influenced by non Han Chinese) that was elevated to the status of National Language by Sun Yat Sen for the sake of China’s national unity.

2. Mandarin was never spoken by your proud, imperial Tang Dynasty ancestors. It was probably spoken by the Northern (Non-Han) Jurchen, Mongols and Manchu minority. Start speaking the language of your ancestors today.

原来,我累了...

原来,我累了...

才知道生活不只是简简单单的,

为自己将来的打算,

而是为了千千万万的孩儿,

为他们设定他们该走的路.

路,固然走得不易.

但毕竟,那就是人生的必经之路.

也许,他们还天真的活着.

我是否该让他们了解到,

生活的一切一切?

毕竟,我走过的路,

他们迟早都得走.

只是是早或迟罢了.

十万个为什么,

成了你们的座右铭.

如果没饱读圣书,

我大概也将毁于你们的好奇里.

我累了,但是没人知晓.

没人了解,唯独自己,

在夜空人静当儿,

默默的,为这些幼苗祈祷.

希望他们能发育成长,

而不是遇到意外,或一些些的苦难,

而选择放弃了这段财富.

我累了,得带着一幅面具,

面对着天真无暇的你们.

如何?那不是我.

但是,逼我的面具戴上.

是你们的能力,

然而,有了这样的一个能力,

的代价很简单.

就是要为你们的能力付出责任及后果.

我累了，

原来现代教育，只是让你们去把自己表现的最好。

但不实性灵方面，而是学术。

但毕竟有了学术而心不正。

回头一望，只会带来一片“色”彩，

是落“色”的色。

我甘心让你学术堕落，让你在外当劳工。

也不要你当个强盗的首脑。

我累了，

真得不行了。。

但，我还是要把你改变，

然而，我把自己都改得一塌糊涂，

以便希望能好好的吧你们教出来。

真得累了，

晚安星星月亮，以及在后边的太阳。

还有在远方和我努力的你。

emptiness

Lonely in the valley of emptiness,

only being followed by the wind of fuzziness,

I fonder on the day that we had together,

who else could understand the cold that none could bear?

Noise had arose from the outsider zone,

where there's so many being,

having some life that never had before by myself,

what could had be if I were them?

I felt nothing but swaying mind,

blowed by the rough wind,

that coax the winter me.

someday, it will forward, and march towards the never ending,

that we shall meet each other, on the valley of emptiness.

and revert it to the land that we had been together before.

Vanish! Valley of Emptiness!

you are no longer needed in my life, but

most of the time, you were with me.

we had became friendly towards each others

and started to appreciate it.

emptiness isnt bad after all,

if you need some space to go on.

Life it's that we should learn everything come to us,

and anything leave us behind.

while the mighty globe is round,

and so shall our heart be.

bless..

Ray's thought 1

I watched thousands of human being within my short period of life and some really made me having fun and laughing hard. I enjoyed what they had shown me and what they had taught me.

I learned to be thoughtful throughout my life, and being an observant person for not doing some idiotic mistakes though mistakes were often made. It's some kind of learning process but not with the dumb mistakes being made.

Everyone were born equally and would enjoy the heavenly goodness offered by our mother earth. Though some might not have a perfect body structures as other does but they were blessed with something else. One might be blessed with high intelligence, but ending up meeting the creator faster than every because of some unknown stresses from inside out.

Most of the human being were made equally and balanced either mentally or physically. Somehow, some human being tend to use their thought the wrong way out and there would be some jokes around for others to enjoy. While some learned the hard away to be with life.

Being treated unfairly seems to be an upset news, but it's not a true message that my Lord brought from the heavenly earth to us. God sent them to us just for training purposes where we need to be better so that we can be with Him no matter where we're. I thank God for everything He had done for me and for anyone who had taught me something in somewhere or somehow rather.

Being a Teacher

Ambition...
Seems to be so ambitious...
Dream of one and flow,
From what and where I wanted to,
Making me who I'm now,
are those who inspired me well,
It's totally different from what I see and what I'm doing.

I want to be one who can change the world,
by passing down what I had learned and what they should be learning,
so that This World, can be a better one.

Passion from theirs, had influence me to be who I'm today.
I'm no one if not because of Them.
I cried before, not because I'm touched or being down and sad.
But it's what They had passed down to me.
Not only the precious wealth They had taught me.
It's the morale and what a true human should be.

In the past, I'm too naive to understand whatever They told me.
I hate myself for being naive for that long and do not understand what They had told me.
Regretted and awoken from these terrified nightmare,
I thank all for making me a better man,
And I really hope I could realize all these when I were younger,
But I appreciate that I could be realizing all these at this very moment.
At least, I'm no longer losing in the unknown Grey zone.

I thank God for giving me strength to be who I'm now.
Showing me the celestial path that none had taken but Himself.
Mistakes might be made but from His words,
I changed much much more than ever.
I prayed hard, so that You could lead everyone to the real path.

Dear Pa and Ma, whom I loved the most.
You're my world...
Without You, I wouldn't be here writing these.
Wow...
How long had I actually with you since I'm a cell inside You?
And I'm the lucky one that You had chosen me to be with Mom for 10 months.
Carefully carried for so long until I'm here.
How can I repay both of You?
I'm still searching for the Answer...
One day, I hope someone would enlighten me...

Bros and Sis,
You're my passion...
You show me everything that I should learn...
Whatever that You had affected me deep enough...
To follow Your way,
To create who I'm today.

All of these had taught me to be who I'm...
and being some one's teacher to educate them...

"待业"老师 之 人生

突然觉得,一年,三年的学历..都会好过5年半的. 老师的老板不够钱用是吗? 要我借你吗?

"待业"老师还得当临教才能当真正的老师.也不知道是哪位仁兄发表的.只知道是从报章的来的消息.老实说,我真的可"爱死"这些所谓的大人物,什么教育 局,什么的要发布文凭的...? 我也搞不懂, 还有我两千余位战友们也不明白.应该是一个马来西亚的子民, 也在晕晕的,不知道发生了什么事.

热 诚, 我有..多的是, 但是渐渐的消失. 怪的,也不能怪老师的老板, 他是无辜的.他为了"待业"老师的5年半课程辛苦了好久好久好久.我只能告诉老师的老板.我谢谢您的关怀备至, 要你老人家到处去东奔西跑,左抄右抄的,才能给"待业"老师一本"完美无缺"的复印课本,也完美的结合了1个马来西亚的特征 --"五颜六色,应有尽有".好听吗? 谁都喜欢听好听的话,但往往就是相反的事实."待业"老师的课本,就连一个小学生的课本都更好.没关系,老师的老板开心就好.

有 位学生问过我,"老师老师,你在那里读书啊?" 我回答,老师的学校. 学生又问我, 那老师的学校一定很好的咯,好过学校几万倍. 当时,我不知道该如何回答他. 要不就告诉他事实; 要不就不要破坏春秋美梦. 这感觉不好受,毕竟为人师表撒谎简直就是罪恶. 我唯有选择委屈的微笑,点点我的头说: "你真聪明!" 我维护了老师老板的面子,但出卖了自己对教育的诚恳,欺骗了那无辜小孩的心灵. 我有着无尽的无奈,我又能如何? 我没那种能力去改变事实.感觉到微小的自己,根本不能改变这残酷的事实. 无奈阿..

对 了! 老师的老板. 你老人家给了我们家用. 我们都很开心, 以为能有个更好的环境来学习来教导吾国后代.但是5年半了, 唯有一个地方保留着-- 博物馆级的课堂. 课堂? 用课室来形容会比较体贴. 倒不如说,比小学课室来的更"完美"及"多元化". 没有一间课室设备是完善的. 就读的老师们有时还得偷偷摸摸的到隔壁偷拿桌椅. 原来老师的老板要我们这些就读的老师把这种讯息传达给下一代.也难怪社会越来越"安全". 那就要谢谢老师的老板哦!

考试是考验自己的能力. 但在老师的学校, 灌输着一种很强烈的概念-- 合作精神. 往往在考试期间, 这种精神就可以从这些为人师表的就读老师涌出来. 就好像童谣唱着的一般-- "让我们抄在一起,在一起,在一起.让我们抄在一起,考试死不去." 还有就是老师的老师,见到了也盖着眼睛. 时辰高啊, 没看到. 这样的就让他们毕业了...! 恭喜恭喜!

恭喜恭喜? 到头来还是等到像阿公一样, 喜讯全无. 人生犹如杯茶,苦中带甘,甘中带苦. 回头望一望, 才知道自己比起那些没得到此机会来就读的朋友们来的幸福. 所以呢, "待业"老师该惜福!

雷

10.40pm 17/12/2011